tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53325642053891283232024-03-05T00:13:06.889-08:00Possibilities Becoming RealityCoreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.comBlogger85125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-57049205297565639502013-10-22T18:43:00.000-07:002013-10-22T18:43:29.228-07:00Metformin - Love/Hate I love metformin, at least parts of it. I love the part that helps control my cravings, lowers my appetite, helps me lose weight and ovulate. I hate the part that makes me horribly sick to my stomach, vitamin deficient and miserable.<br />
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I have stopped taking my metformin, for the time being. I am trying paleo without it, since it became evident that it was what was making me so sick and more sick on paleo for some reason. I am going to talk to my midwife about alternatives and working really hard to lose weight.<br />
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I took before pictures yesterday.... let's just say that any time I'm tempted to eat something bad, I plan on looking at those pictures and seeing why I have to change. I'm going to start exercising daily today (Day 2) and hope to see lots of changes. I have a doctor appointment in 4 weeks, I hope to be down a good amount of weight and be able to talk to her openly about my struggle, PCOS and trying to conceive. I do not plan on going on any other medication to get pregnant, at this point, but I would like to talk to her about it and maybe have a prescription and plan in place for when I am ready.<br />
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Max and I have discussed the maximum weight I should be when we start actively trying with more medication. Hopefully, dropping the weight will mean I won't need the medication but we aren't planning on that. I have a disorder that affects all sizes, regardless of the misconception that it's overweight women. Weight loss MAY help, but it may not. I've been having problems since I was a young teenager when I was not massively overweight.<br />
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Anyway, I've got chicken cooking but will post again in the morning about today.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-2436227885330162692013-07-17T08:33:00.002-07:002013-07-17T08:33:57.440-07:00Whole 30, Take 2I'm starting the Whole 30 again tomorrow! I did some research on eating a paleo diet sans gallbladder and I have a plan! I'm going to go buy the stuff tonight and will go full out this time! I hope the stomach upsets are fewer and less severe but I'm determined to make it work this time. I *need* this. I am feeling slightly desperate since I had always hoped to already be pregnant with #2 by the time #1 turned 2. At this point, if something major doesn't change, we are probably looking at a 3.5-4 year age gap, which is more than I want. Not to say I don't appreciate and love all the time with Carter, it's just what we want for our family and feel is right for us.<br />
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Anyway, I'm going to be eating a lot of steamed veggies, chicken breasts and fish, salad and fruit. I'm going to be doing it solo but will be done before we go on a family camping trip. I had planned on waiting until August 1 but don't want to waste the next almost 2 weeks. I'm also going to be taking Carter down to the park almost every evening and letting him play with Max while I walk or we play basketball together.<br />
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I'm super excited for the change and since I did well last time as far as cravings and being strong, I'm hoping this time will be much more successful without the stomach problems.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-91729087397704824702013-07-15T08:57:00.003-07:002013-07-15T08:57:37.155-07:00Whole 30 and Me First, I love the Whole 30! I was feeling well mentally, emotionally I was a bit of a rollercoaster and I had a strong conviction to see it through. There was one problem, one very large problem, that prevented me from finishing the first week even. I had my gall bladder removed a month and a half ago, the whole30 is a high fat diet. Apparently, my body does not agree with it, yet. I was so so sick it was interfering with basically every other aspect of my life, including being a mom and wife.<br />
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My goal is to get healthy and this just isn't the way for me at this time. I am just going to eat a natural diet that is controlled carb and exercise. I don't plan on cutting out and food groups, just choose what amounts work for me. I had lost 7-8 pounds already on just metformin so I hope that keeps up and a healthy diet and exercise results in even more.<br />
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I haven't experienced a case of stomach upset since I added grains and dairy back into my diet. I'm disappointed that I was not able to finish the month. I still have goals to meet, though, and have the determination to get there. I have a doctor appointment in one month, I hope to be down 10 more pounds by then. I also have my next endocrinologist appointment 3 weeks after that and will have another goal for that appointment.<br />
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Today (Monday), I am starting a low-carb diet and will use MyFitnessPal to track my food and exercise. I need to get my Metformin back up to 1,500 mg, I lowered it when I was having my stomach problems. I hope to be able to get up to the prescribed 2,000 mg this next month. I need this, my body needs this. I need to lose the weight. My body doesn't work at this weight.<br />
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The good news is that I've lost 12 pounds, I'm soooo close to Onederland that I can taste it, just have to get there! I have to get to my goal weight to even think about having more kiddos and with Carter turning 2 next month, I'm really feeling the pressure to get the weight off and give him a little sibling!<br />
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Anyway, I need to get off her and eat some breakfast and clean the house. Going to throw Carter on my back to make cleaning more of an exercise! :-)Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-72590944074781575072013-07-09T18:10:00.001-07:002013-07-09T18:10:15.625-07:00Whole30: Day 1I've been thinking about doing <a href="http://ac15843ff1843f7f0000013ef032ad25d376/">The Whole30</a> for some time, probably 6 months or so. I had planned on starting on June 1 but we seriously had a lacking of funds last month so it was out of the question. So, I started today! It's a strict month long challenge of eating a hunter-gatherer diet. It's designed to lower inflammation and give you a clean slate to really learn what agrees with your body and doesn't.<br />
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Why am I doing this challenge? According to the specialist managing my PCOS, my ideal weight would be somewhere around 130 pounds. My hormones are out of whack. I can go 6+ months with no menstrual cycle, I have a large amount of belly fat, have started developing fatty deposits on my liver, have hair where hair shouldn't be on a woman and a slight case of insulin resistance. My Dr. recommended a low-carb diet, keeping my carbs below 50 per meal and 30 per snack. She also prescribed me a diabetes drug that has proven to be magnificent for treating PCOS, metformin. I've been on Metformin for 3.5 weeks now and have lost 7 pounds and gotten my period! Maybe not something everyone wants to read about but hey, it's seriously exciting for me! I'm keeping track of my cycle and temps via Fertility Friend this cycle and we will see just how much difference metformin is making! Hoping I ovulate on my own and have a normal cycle, even if a long, I don't care. Anyway, the point is that The Whole30 is low-carb in nature. You only eat natural, non-processed foods so the only carbs you eat are from fruits and veggies. I'm also a strictier version of the program due to my PCOS and will try reintroducing some of those foods after the month is up. Some additional foods I am not eating are eggs, tomatoes, nuts, clarified butter and ghee. The thought is that those foods can potentially cause an immune response and that's the last thing we want.<br />
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So, I will be eating meat (preferably grass-fed but that's expensive so we will do our best) and veggies or fruit three times a day for 30 days. I'm excited to see the changes and like I said before, the weight loss is the last priority. Another point of The Whole30 is no weighing or measuring during it. So I weighed and measured today and will again on day 31. Today I weighed 205. I'm hoping to lose 15 pounds over the next month but we will see. I'm excited to see what happens.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-87978706768336080502013-07-08T17:42:00.000-07:002013-07-08T17:42:02.885-07:00Thankful<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Sometimes, the way he is with a baby or his siblings or friends, it makes my heart hurt. He absolutely loves babies, loves playing with kids, although being an only child, sometimes he needs a break and quiet time. That's ok. He loves getting a diaper, wipes, pacifier or toy for a baby. I know he will be an amazing big brother, whenever that time comes and whatever way a baby joins our family.<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-17807172518648169092013-07-05T16:51:00.002-07:002013-07-05T16:51:21.123-07:00Health UpdateI had my surgery on May 30, it went smoothly, except they had to make an extra cut so I have five holes instead of four. The first week was rough, I couldn't sit up on my own, pick up Carter, stand for any real length of time, etc. I'm now 5 weeks post-op and have some pain sometimes, mainly when I lay on my stomach or pick Carter up and twist. I think it's mainly muscle pain but not sure, just know some residual pain is normal.<br />
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I also saw an endocrinologist on May 29. I needed help managing my PCOS and learning how to deal with my disease and work with my body. I was prescribed met.formin, a drug commonly used to treat PCOS by battling the underlying insulin resistance. Even though I don't test as being IR, it's believed that all women with PCOS have some level of IR. I'm 3.5 weeks into my new drug protocol and have had a fairly easy transition. I started at 500 mg a day for a week. The second week was 1,000 mg a day. The last week and a half I've been on 1,500 mg. The last week and a half was the hardest, symptom wise. I'm prescribed 2,000 so am planning on trying that transition on Monday but last Monday, my body was in no way ready for that jump. The good news is that the metformin seems to be helping already and guess what? I'm excited! I have lost a bit of weight but need to lose a lot more. I'm starting the Whole30 Monday and am hoping to stay on it for 2 months. I have read some amazing reviews about this diet and PCOS and talked personally to people who've had good results. The main thing is getting my body working right, not weight loss. The weight loss, I am looking forward too, but I need a functioning body more than anything. I'm hoping that in the next 6-9 months, we will be expecting a new little one.<br />
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I go back to the endocrinologist in 2 months and we hope to see some big changes in my bloodwork and hormones. I have a lot of work ahead of me but it will be so worth it, to be healthy and feel normal and be the person I know I can be. PCOS, I'm going to beat you!Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-88684021722097633002013-04-26T18:35:00.001-07:002013-04-26T18:35:44.806-07:00Surgery?I have zero experience with surgery. I did visit Ally after her surgery, but that's the extend of my personal experience. I have a consult with a surgeon on Wednesday and I'm nervous! We will find out if I need my gallbladder out and when. I'm not having current problems with it but do if I'm not careful about what I eat. It's more a precautionary thing. Carter is quickly approaching 2 and we would like to have another baby when he's around 3-3.5. I really don't want to have gallbladder problems while pregnant. I know how bad they are not pregnant, I can't imagine them with a womb-babe in there squishing everything up even more.<br />
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I also am going to have surgery to have my wisdom teeth removed. I'm more worried about that one, the most dental work I've ever had done, beyond a cleaning, is sealant. The thought of them cutting my gums open and pulling out my (sideways) wisdom teeth scares the scarecrows out of me! <br />
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Deep breaths, it'll all be worth it in the end and I can't wait to get all these health things behind me and add to our family. My consult with the endocrinologist is at the end of May, still a bit away but I'm hoping to get some advice and help and learn how to better work with my body. I have a weight loss goal for then and am really trying hard to make it.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-53338165961852159352013-04-20T21:00:00.003-07:002013-04-20T21:00:46.515-07:00So Tired Of MovingSo, circumstances have come together to allow us to move home! As excited as I am and as happy as I know I will be to be home, I hate this stage of moving! We are starting in Carter's room and selling his crib and other baby things. We also took down all his monkey decals. It makes me sad. He's growing up!<br />
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We still have three weeks before we move, so no rush but this is the most notice we've ever had before a move and the most organized. I am going to miss living down here, no, I'm going to miss some of the people we've gotten to know. Wish we would have gotten to know them a bit better!<br />
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Fortunately, we are moving to a house! We've only rented one house before, in our 7+ years of renting. We've never had a two bathroom or three bedroom, we've never had a garage or shed or two separate fenced yards. We are fortunate to be moving into Max's mom's house. It's due to unfortunate circumstances for them but I'm happy we'll be able to help them out and that it will help us out as well. It's a great set up for puppy raising and our little man to have room to run and play.<br />
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We also have full permission to do what we want, as far as decorating. So Carter's going to get an awesome bedroom and we are really going to make this house our own. It's going to take some work since all the bedrooms and kitchen have wallpaper that needs removed but it'll be so rewarding and worth it!Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-90139684878385265532013-04-10T19:01:00.001-07:002013-04-10T19:01:27.080-07:00Breast feeding UpdateI think my boy may be night-weaning, all on his own! The last two nights he has slept in his bed, the one in our room, for 8+ hours straight! Him not nursing through the night also means he's sleeping through the night! I'm so happy we didn't do any sleep training with him! I hope this keeps up though, I'm enjoying being able to sleep through the night, and not getting pushed off the bed!<br />
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We will see how him night-weaning affects his nursing in general. He has still been nursing before bed and in the morning and sometimes once during the day. I'm so happy and proud that we've made it this far, there were many times I wanted to give up but I didn't and knowing I gave my boy the best start I could and fought through all the problems makes me one proud mommy! <br />
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Carter had a dentist appointment and we found out he has an upper lip tie. I honestly never looked but now so many things make sense. It could explain the slow weight gain, my supply issues and his refusal to nurse from one side. We will be looking into getting it corrected so it doesn't impact his adult teeth or any other area of his life. <br />
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I have so much hope now that I will be able to exclusively breastfeed our future babies and will be looking for a lip tie on our newborns from now on! Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-60094542344479047352013-04-10T07:54:00.000-07:002013-04-10T07:54:31.559-07:00Carter-Carter at 19 monthsI say it all the time but I can't believe how fast time has flown. I can't believe my little guy went from being a cuddly, tiny little floppy legged newborn to being a walking, running, jabbering, opinionated 19 month old. In just over 4 months he'll be two years old!<br />
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This child has a problem with sleeping. I mean, a real problem. I *refuse* to leave him in his bed crying. It may be how some parents choose to address sleep issues but I am not one of them. I'm a cryer, it's how I handle stressful situations, anxiety and sometimes I just need a good cry to release my emotions, good or bad. If I get to the point where I'm crying so hard I can't breath and to the point of exhaustion, I don't sleep well, I don't feel better when I wake up and if I'm just ignored, I feel betrayed and abandoned. These are feelings I do not want my son to have. I want him to know that I will always be there for him, no matter what.</div>
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This kid can get undressed so quickly! Thankfully he is not to the point of taking his diaper off, yet, but I'm sure it's coming. He just started taking his pants off and pulling at his diaper when it's dirty. I've gotten his potty chair down and he's sat on it once. He's really interested in the toilet and flushing and wiping and washing hands but I'm not sure he's quite there yet for potty training. He only acknowledges the dirty diaper after he's gone, not before. I think it's time to start reading him some potty books and we'll go from there.</div>
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I love watching him grow and learn! He's hilarious at this age and so entertaining. He's learning animals sounds and the differences between animals. He loves to hold the vacuum extension up to his mouth and be an "elephant" and he thinks every bird is a duck so will start quacking anytime he sees a bird.</div>
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He's recently started trying to jump. It's so cute how much effort he puts into jumping, he gets this sly smile on his face, bends his knees and jumps up onto his tip-toes real quick. He's yet to get air-born but he tries so hard.</div>
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He's working really hard on learning the alphabet. He loves his alphabet magnets and other letter toys and games. We are working on shapes and colors but he seems to like the alphabet more.</div>
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He is talking so much! We really have to be careful about what we say in front of him, you never know when he'll choose to repeat a word or phrase! Yesterday, Max and I were talking and I said "duh" to myself about something and Carter starts saying it over and over again. *facepalm*</div>
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Now that the weather is getting warmer and slightly less wet (we do live in Oregon, afterall) he wants to be outside all the time. Our apartment backyard isn't quite ready for summer time, we are planting grass this week and plan on buying him so toys for outside, but regardless, he wants to be out there every minute of everyday. He hates it when I bring him back inside, for whatever reason. </div>
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He is obsessed with babies. He sees a baby and is mesmerized. He is a bit weary of them but he likes to look.</div>
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Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-2038385203443852902013-04-05T11:09:00.000-07:002013-04-05T11:09:37.630-07:00Blood Results - #1I didn't get a prescription for met.formin because my primary care doesn't have any experience treating PCOS with this particular drug and I'm already referred to an expert to manage my PCOS. She did, however, go over my blood test results with me. The GREAT news is that I'm not diabetic! I never got retested after my pregnancy and since I was considered to have GD, I should have been when Carter was around a year old. My insulin was fine and most of my hormones were within normal range. My free testosterone was above the normal range but not a lot.<br />
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Since I'm still waiting to even schedule an appointment with the endocrinologist, Monday will be three weeks, I'm going to go back on birth control. We plan on me being on birth control for several months anyway, so might as well start it now and start the getting the benefits.<br />
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That's all I've got for now, on the health front. I hope to lose about 50 pounds before we have our next baby, so it will take some times but I'm determined to get there. I will have to get a post up on Carter here soon, he's changing so much and growing so fast, it's hard to believe!Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-44773403745901796322013-04-02T10:04:00.002-07:002013-04-02T10:04:27.521-07:00Moving On UpWe got word yesterday that there is a three bedroom coming available! I can't tell you how excited this makes me, I just hope we get it! We love our apartments and the manager and area and by getting a three bedroom, we would also gain another bathroom and have plenty of space for a new baby (when the time comes).<br />
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School started yesterday, I'm retaking two classes I got A's in in Roseburg so it will likely be an easy term and the workload doesn't look too bad. I think the hardest part will just be keeping Carter occupied while I do my schoolwork and scheduling myself between school, spiritual, family, visiting our home town, moving, doctor appointments, etc.<br />
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We have a serious lacking of any decor in our home and it's a problem that really bugs me. I want pictures of my son on the walls and art I enjoy and curtains, etc. So we are going to be getting Carter's pictures taken and print out more that we have taken over his last 19 months of life. I'm excited!<br />
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I have a doctor appointment today with a primary care physician. I decided I needed to get in and see one for my gallbladder and celiac and general health. I have a referral for an endocrinologist for my PCOS and hormone problems and a dentist appointment next week to get my teeth cleaned, cavities filled and talk about my wisdom teeth. I may ask today if the PCP will prescribe me met.formin for my PCOS/hormone issues since it's already been over two weeks that I've been waiting and will likely be another month or more until I get in to see the endocrinologist and I want to start it sooner than that. If she's not willing, I'm going to have to call my gyno to see if she's prescribe it for me. She said before she wanted to leave it to the endocrinologist but eh, I'm tired of waiting for my body to work right and my hormones to level out.<br />
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Anyway, I should probably go eat some breakfast and do some reading and take care of my little guy. Hope my appointment today goes well!Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-28989346313770774412013-03-31T22:57:00.000-07:002013-03-31T22:57:27.670-07:00Long Time, No BlogMan, depression and my PCOS flaring up with avengance sure does take all of my motivation for blogging.<br />
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So, here's where we stand<br />
¤Carter is 19 months old now! Still nursing several times a day with random days of nursing only twice.<br />
¤We still live 1.5 hours from home. Not too far but I miss my family.<br />
¤We will hopefully be receiving our next puppy this summer or fall to raise for Canine Angels Service Teams.<br />
¤We are taking some drastic steps financially that I'm not ready to discuss yet. I will say that it is a step we have to take to provide Carter and future little ones with the things they need.<br />
¤We just celebrated our 6th anniversary! <br />
¤I have a plethora of appointments upcoming to get me healthy and prepare my stubborn body for another pregnancy. We are expecting at least 6 months of treatment and prevention before I will be close to healthy enough.<br />
¤I restart my college career tomorrow. I'm excited to get this degree behind me, in due time.<br />
¤Our apartment has a decent sized backyard we are excited to make into a small garden and place for our dirt and mud loving toddled to play in and a place to read and relax.<br />
¤We will hopefully be taking Carter to Disneyland and the Canine Angels Walk With The Angels in October! We have never taken a vacation and desperately need one.<br />
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I will try to update more tomorrow. Carter is a hilarious, adventurous, sweet, cuddly, mommy's boy who I love so much. We definitely have our challenges but I am so blessed!<br />
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Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-5932780292516727012012-11-16T13:50:00.000-08:002012-11-19T13:51:09.760-08:00Financial FridayWe are making slow progress on our debt. As of today we are 5.5% less in debt. We still have a long way to go but are motivated and eager to be out of debt and have better credit scores. Not only do we hope to own a home but I hope my credit will reflect who I am. I guess right now it does, I have let nearly every aspect of my life go because I felt so bad about myself but I'm making changes in every area and already feel so much better and like I can do this! So as time goes on, that debt will go down, credit will go up and it will properly reflect who I am, or who I want to be!<br />
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We are going to meet with a credit counselor and hopefully have some help and advice on what we need to do to own our own home. Hopefully we get good news, or at least encouragement, instead of bad news that could potentially keep us from owning a home for several more years. Let's try to keep positive though!Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-56685719203302725702012-11-15T13:41:00.000-08:002012-11-19T13:43:48.886-08:00Thirsty ThursdayI only made two smoothies this past week, one had kale, green grapes and banana and was really good. The other one had kale, banana, cucumber, green grapes, celery and some apple in it. It was a bit thick for my taste and if I try that again will probably remove some of the pulp.<br />
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My eating was pretty bad this week.... I really need to go on a reduced carb diet for my PCOS and with being gluten free it should be fairly easy but I'm struggling to give up my goodies. I need to remind myself that those things are spossed to be treats, not every thing I eat.<br />
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So this week I'm going to work on eating better and on a schedule. Drinking a gallon of water everyday. Working out everyday, getting out of the house every other day and going for a walk as weather allows. I have a coat ordered that will make it so I can carry Carter in the Beco in cold weather and both of us will be warm and dry.<br />
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In line with that, we are looking at adding a small dog to our family (I know my last post said not until we buy a house but that may be further off then we hoped and Carter needs a dog in his life.) So I'll have a need to walk the little guy everyday.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-79781688981599801222012-11-12T22:09:00.003-08:002012-11-12T22:10:26.259-08:00Milestones - 11/12/2012Carter's nearly 15 months old already! This week he started some adorable things and saying awesome words.<br />
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1) He points to the picture of him and my mom on the wall and says "Mema"<br />
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2) He will squat down and then jump up and run<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-46226633986243077352012-11-11T09:12:00.001-08:002012-11-11T09:12:52.902-08:00OverhaulI'm going to be changing things up around here. I haven't been feeling really inspired to blog and I feel like it's a great way for me to look back and remember what life was like at this point in time, the challenges, the milestones, the amazing, all of it. I want to document it.<br />
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Monday I started on a new journey for me. I'm calling it "Time to Trim", an overhaul on my life habits,eating habits, exercise habits, outlook, etc. So I'm going to have a theme for everyday of the week to help motivate me to post and also plan to post on other things as they come up.<br />
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I'm going to be overhauling the dog blog as well, even though we're currently dogless. We are hoping to get out of debt, simultaneously build our credit and buy a house hopefully within the year.<br />
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I'm still working on the names and idea behind each day. So far I have:<br />
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Milestone Monday - Document new milestones Carter reaches as he reaches them and some pictures of him.<br />
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Trimming Tuesday - My weigh in for the week and how I'm doing on my plan, what exercises I did thoughout the week and any stumbles I had and ways I can improve.<br />
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Wordless Wednesday - Picture or pictures with no words, will probably be of Carter.<br />
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Thirsty Thursday - I've started drinking green smoothies and making Carter homemade juice and would like to document what works, what doesn't, what we all like and don't like and the nutritional benefits of each smoothie.<br />
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Financial Friday - What steps we've taken to reach our financial goals and what we have planned for the next week.<br />
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Saturday and Sunday will be free days to write about what I like. Celebrate life and an overview of how I did the past week and what I hope to accomplish the coming week. I will try to be open but not too open, a balance I've struggled with in the past.<br />
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Time to Trim: My goal is to control my PCOS with my diet and exercise, lose weight, be more active and feel better about myself in my skin. I want to be able to go to the park and run with my son, meet whatever dog we get's activity level with exercise, feel good about my body and actually look pregnant with my next pregnancy(ies). I want to be able to have a body that leads to effective labor and delivery and that will allow me to better reach my goal of having a natural med-free birth for the next baby. My goal is to lose 75 pounds, overall. Depending on when our next pregnancy occurs, it will likely not be a direct path but that's what I would like to reach.<br />
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Financial Goals: We have a substantial amount of debt, including medical expenses and student loans. Our student loans will not be included in my measurements but we will be paying on them (even though we're still in school) to help build our credit and lower our debt to income ratio. I will not be posting amounts but will be posting percentages. So if we pay off X amount of dollars in debt for that week, I will calculate the percentage of debt and add it up for an overall total. We hope to buy a home and I would love to one day be a breeder keeper and raise litters for the first 8 weeks for Canine Angels. Max would like a doberman so that's what I'm planning on being our "homeowner dog" since we can't have one in our apartment. We are not planning on getting a dog before that unless it is a service dog in training. So financially we hope to do the following:<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-35414654497796924522012-11-11T09:10:00.000-08:002012-11-11T10:44:51.777-08:00He's Growing UpCarter is starting to get big and everyday is learning new things. It's such a fun fun time but so exhausting too. He's wonderful although he certainly has his challenges.<br />
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*He thought the cat needed to get dressed so he was putting shirts on his. Elijah would play with them and Carter would laugh that sweet, bubbly baby laugh.*</div>
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Walking: He started walking when he was 12 months old. Now at 14.5 months he's a crazy kid, running and trying to jump and climb and wants to walk everywhere by himself. The only issue is he doesn't really like going where we're going, he wants to go see all the fun things and climb up and down stairs and the like. He's really good about holding my hand at this point but we're working on going where Mommy wants instead of baby.<br />
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Talking: This child talks a lot. He loves to talk and say new words. I think I've counted 25+ words he's said but he uses probably 15-20 on a regular basis. He still uses sign language and just learned three new signs, on top of milk. I think my favorite word to hear him say is "outside." It's so cute!<br />
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*Elijah loves him, Carter was sitting on the couch and Lijah jumped up and laid in front of him so Carter laid down to cuddle.*</div>
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Outside: Carter LOVES to play outside! I try and get him out of the house everyday but with the rain starting it's proving to be more difficult. I think we may get a membership to an indoor play/learning center for the winter months.<br />
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Favorites: He loves the cat, dogs, to take baths, to play "dress up", to put lids on containers, put things in containers, music, he absolutely loves music and to sing and dance. He loves books and will sit and read to himself.<br />
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Other updates: He's learned that if he wants something he just picks up whatever it is and shoves it in my lap, i.e. his sippy cup if he wants a drink, a book if he wants to read a story, shoes if he wants to go "bye bye", etc.<br />
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Challenges: Sleep is still a major challenge. He's sleeping well in his crib but it's tough to get him to sleep for naps and bed time. He doesn't normally nurse to sleep anymore but he will eventually just come ask for some cuddles and will fall asleep cuddled up to me.<br />
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*His RoSK blanket came in and he wanted to play with it. This blanket is amazing, waterproof on one side and soft and plush on the other. Works for the carrier, stroller, his little bike, playing on wet grass, nursing cover and as a normal blanket.*</div>
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Another major challenge is the tantrums, they are much worse when he's tired. He learned to hit, I think from splashing in the tub, I'm not sure really, and will hit and bite and scream if he's tired and wants something and I tell him no or just don't get it fast enough. He goes in timeout after I explain to him why, sits there for a minute and then gets to get up and give me a hug and say "sorry". He's said it once but I don't wait for him to say it every time since it doesn't count as an actual word yet since he just repeated it. I hope this is just a phase he's going through and will be over soon.<br />
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Overall this is a fun, exciting age. He learns something new everyday, is full of curiosity and trouble. He is such a fun little boy, full of energy and life and love. He gives the best hugs and kisses, he wraps his little arms around my neck, puts his head on my shoulder and runs his hands through my hair.<br />
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I honestly love being this little boys mommy so much. He lights up my life and makes it so much brighter and fuller!<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-59391468083383616372012-08-27T10:18:00.001-07:002012-08-27T10:18:44.180-07:00I Have A Toddler....I now have a toddler toddling around my house. I can't believe how fast the first year has flown by and as sad as I am that I don't have my tiny little baby anymore, I wouldn't trade watching Carter learn and develop for anything. He follows basic directions, will clean up after himself if I ask him, tries to dress himself, signs "milk", says several words, loves being outside, going on walks and going to the park. He has so much personality and is so so close to walking! Last night he took 5 steps to get to me! He loves hiding things, like my wallet, in different drawers and baskets. He loves bath time and will ask to take a bath any time we go in the bathroom. He's a champ about brushing his teeth, eating, helping me, playing by himself. He loves books and will sit and flip through a book and "read" it out loud to himself.<br />
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He is not a very good sleeper. He stays up late, wakes up a couple times at night and sleeps in. Then he'll take a nap late in the day and start the whole cycle over again. Right now he's napping at 10 am because he woke up early around 8:30. Hopefully he'll take an earlier than 4 afternoon nap and go to bed before 10:45. I think he's just so busy playing and learning and developing that he doesn't go to sleep until he basically passes out but he won't go to sleep unless he's ready. I can try and try and try but until he chooses, he's not going to sleep. I'm going to get some sleep training books and see what works for us. I can't do cry-it-out but I feel responsible because his sleep issues started when I went to work. Before that he slept great.<br />
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He now has 6 teeth, 4 on top and 2 on bottom. He's working on more right now and is in so much pain, my poor boy.<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-30266677297694459442012-07-30T15:42:00.001-07:002012-07-30T15:42:17.834-07:00AdjustingA lot has happened in the last couple of weeks. Max had a random seizure, we are getting settled, established and making decisions to better our future. We have lots of appointments coming up and Max is going strong at his job. I'm getting all registered to get a certificate in digital graphic design so that in about 9 months I'll be able to do a little bit of work from home to add some mental challenge to my days and add some income.<br />
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I'm adjusting to living in a larger city. I really enjoy having everything within a couple of minutes. I love the thought of getting to decide what hospital to deliver our next baby at. I love our new congregation and our apartment.<br />
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What I don't like is that I spend most of my days at home. I haven't made any friends yet, hopefully the coming weeks I'll get closer to some of our fellow believers, and I have a hard time with Carter's horrible sleep habits, getting out for walks and other activities.<br />
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I plan on starting to go for daily walks and exercise daily and take better care of myself, do my hair and makeup and what not.<br />
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I miss having a dog in the house but I'm not where near ready to get another dog. When we do get another dog, we will start with puppy sitting/fostering and then puppy raising. I don't see us having another pet dog for a couple of years. Neither one of us are ready and we know we wouldn't be able to give a pet dog a great home and that's what we want to do.<br />
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No news on Eva yet, beyond what we found online, that they are working on getting her a diagnosis. I feel like her tough early months made me jaded, I couldn't see her for what shape she was in currently, all I could see what that tiny little puppy trying to die in my home. It's a hard thing to do, to admit that you aren't the right place for an animal you love, but I'm happy I did and she's getting an unbiased opinion and help.Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-53557061738245809752012-07-10T10:42:00.000-07:002012-07-10T10:42:07.794-07:00A Dream I Thought Would Never HappenAs I sit here and look at my huge to-do list, a chunk of it rolled over from yesterday and do some things online, I can't help but think about how much I love being home. The work is endless, exhausting and I never get a break but I can't imagine anything I'd rather do.<br />
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At one point, not too long ago, I wondered if I would ever have a baby. Would I ever become a mommy? Would I ever feel a little womb baby kicking and moving in my belly? Would I ever hold a warm, wiggly newborn on my chest and feel that overwhelming love and disbelief? Would I ever deal with sleep deprivation and midnight feedings, diaper changes and rocking sessions? When I saw those lines, when I saw my little bug on that first ultrasound and heard his heartbeat for the first time, I started to believe.<br />
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When I had my baby boy, I realized one dream. But I quickly lost another. I had to return to work. I dreamed I would be able to stay home and here I am, it's taken sacrifices, lots of them, but I'm here. It's far better then I ever imagined it could be!<br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">Shaking</span> what his momma gave him! Dancing to the music he was making with the tin of mints.</div>
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I do a lot of food prep, mostly cutting up fresh fruits and veggies, a lot of dishes and picking up after my little tornado is done pulling everything he can reach off of it's perch, a lot of vacuuming, sweeping, mopping, vacuuming, etc. It's the moments when Carter is crawling around playing and decides he needs his mommy and will come up to me, lay his head on my arm or lap and smile. It's when he sees me a squeals and gets the biggest, cheesiest smile on his face. It's watching him learn and grow and develop new skills and tricks. It's knowing exactly what he ate today, exactly how he napped, exactly how he's feeling. It's watching his face as he tries a new food for the first time. Seeing his eyes light up when he realized he just accomplished something he's been working on, like picking up two items in the same hand.<br />
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As nice as the paycheck can be from working, as nice as getting away for a little bit of time can be, nothing comes close to these moments. Nothing comes close to knowing that my son no longer gets a bottle, no longer drinks formula, not a drop. He now gets breastmilk only and water in his sippy cup.<br />
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<br />Coreenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06182505448482461734noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5332564205389128323.post-17224825579462437722012-07-02T09:15:00.001-07:002012-07-02T09:15:42.183-07:00Settling In<div><p>A lot has happened since my last post. Max got a job offer quickly and started last week. We moved (post to come on that), Eva went to a golden retriever rescue and Carter turned 10 months old. My emotions have been all over the place but I feel like things are settling down now and I can return to my new normal. </p>
<p>My reason for suggesting we move down south was for me to be able to stay home with Carter. As much as it sucks to have moved away from my family, for me, it sucks even more to be away from Carter all day every day. I've been home for just over a month (for the second time) and there really is nothing else I would rather do. I'm excited to have the chance at a clean slate, the house is mine to organize and decorate and keep clean and tidy, not have to undo everything and redo while trying to function in it as a home. </p>
<p>Eva went to the golden retriever rescue for a couple of reasons. I don't feel like I'm in a place in my life to care for a large dog, or any dog for that matter. I'm dealing with getting my life stable and where I want it. Eva wasn't getting the attention she deserves and needs. That was all a secondary reason though. With the instability of our income, I knew I wouldn't be able to get her into the vets for a full work up and answers. When we took her back we were told it was her kidneys, there wouldn't be abnormal vet costs because there wasn't anything they could do for her and she would likely not see much after her first birthday. She'll be 4 in October. The golden rescue will get answers and either leave her in a permanent foster home or place her with a family who is fully informed on her health and who have the resources to support her and whatever health issues there are. I miss my beautiful golden girl but I had to put my feelings aside and do what was best for her.</p>
<p>No plans at this point to get a new dog or raise. We are closer to Canine Angels kennels so I will probably puppy sit when I'm ready or at least participate on outings. We still have Elijah, he's adjusting to being an inside cat. </p>
<p>Ok, I better go work on unpacking some more and cleaning. Off to Target later and I may start working on our little backyard.</p>
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